Rant - 3dp5dt

Im 3dp5dt. I don’t know why but I took a test today that was of course negative. It’s like I cannot help the masochism. I had a full on sob fest after my PIO tonight looking at my black and blue belly from lovenox thinking that in the end, this all could be for nothing. It feels like it’s all been for nothing.

I really need to change my attitude about this transfer but how do you find hope when it’s been years of heartbreak?