Something that doesn’t feel like it was meant to be in this moment

Sorry if this doesnt make the most sense. But there goes. I had a friend I got incredibly close with over the course of 2 years we did a lot of fooling around in this times as well. I saw every part of her, the good, the bad, the sad and the joy and supported her through it all. She definitely gave me more affection, care and love than you just give a friend and also did so much to support me through my struggles and what I also had gone through. Unfortunately, despite her feelings being very obvious in actions, I was in denial about my feelings because I had all my walls up because I didn’t want to get burned by her like how my exes did. Here’s where the hesrtbreak part comes in. I work a camp job where I leave for the summer. While I have been away and continue to be gone I realized how much I do truly have feelings for her and the way we bonded has felt like so much more than friends and continues to feel that way. Very unfortunately, she told me she was finally feeling ready to see people and started seeing someone who seems like a very slimy guy. I had been planning on telling her how I felt at the end of the summer when I got back. However everything came out after that. She’s continuing to see where things lead with the guy and it’s heartbreaking to see because I worry for her with the character he’s shown to me in the time I’ve known him. With all that being said we are still very close through this and while I’m at terms and at peace with her seeing someone else. I can’t help this gut feeling I have that we have something that is meant to be, it just wasn’t meant to be in the moment due to life situations that happened on both of our parts