Looking for sources that fuse Christ, magick, and dark mysticism - preferably with Orthodox or Russian flavor

I’m looking for texts or thinkers that explore a synthesis between Christ-centered spirituality and magick, especially with a dark, symbolic, Jungian, or Thelemic edge.

I come from a Russian Orthodox background (I'm a native Russian speaker, but I have a hard time finding any sources, if they even exist) and still feel deeply connected to Christ. Still, I’m drawn to dark aesthetics, inner alchemy, tarot, astrology, and the path of self-directed spiritual transformation. Not into spirit-summoning or necromancy, more interested in the symbolic, initiatory aspects of magick and the soul’s evolution.

I’m not trying to escape Christ, I’m trying to descend into the shadow and find Him there. Think: Orthodox mysticism meets Jungian archetypes, Thelemic will, and personal theurgy, without fully leaving the Christian current.

I’m searching for anything else in this vein:

• Esoteric Christianity that allows for will, darkness, and transformation
• Orthodox-adjacent mystics with a symbolic or magickal worldview
• Systems or paths that hold onto Christ, but reject submission for sovereignty and inner fire

Russian-language or translated sources are great. English too.

Appreciate any leads.