Well farts.

Pet loss sucks. I saw my girl more often than I saw my best friend, my family and my own damn husband but it feels so self indulgent to be so sad about it. Having to lose her so young is killing me. What did we do wrong? Why do all my damn dogs get cancer? Did we give her a good life? Should we have gone in to debt to squeeze out a few more months? The guilt sucks. Ive lost a lot of loved ones in my life and I know this is just survivors guilt and we did all we could and we cant change the past and blahblahblah but goddamn, death sucks.