Married to a Muslim, but not Ahmadi

Hello everyone,

Ive been debating to post this for a long time or really give any thought to it. I am a born Ahmadi, married to a non-ahmadi but he is Muslim. I also have a child. I married without my parents permission as for them this was something that was not possible regardless if he becomes Ahmadi or not. Growing up in Canada, I never saw a difference and still to this day do not understand the hate towards others who are not Ahmadi. My siblings did not have great arrange marriage and 2 of them are divorced but rearranged and married again but still suffering. I did not want that same life where I see my siblings suffer and they wish they spoke up and could have changed the circumstances. Alhamdulillah, I have a good relationship with my family except my Dad. He has not met or seen me since almost 2 years. He hates the fact that I went against his will and did what I did. Which he has every right to, but I did not want the life my siblings have at any cost and having times where they don't even wanna be here. I am not allowed at the house, but my mother misses me when there's gatherings, she wishes for me to write a letter to hazoor for forgiveness so my father can forgive me and will allow me to come to the house. The only way my father will I guess forgive me is if hazoor does, I wanna do this purely for the sake of my mother and nothing else. I am not sure how to even go about this? Anyone has any suggestion?