Advice: How to cope with (visibel) constant arousal if you have to go to the gynaecologist

I have endometriosis and there for I have to often to the gynaecologist. But it is way worse that I have to go to the pelvic muscle physio. The pelvic muscle physio: she is massaging out the pelvic muscle knots in my vagina who builded up threw years of extrem an chronic pain without a break. I had many sessions and I never got aroused since it is really not nice, it is like when you are going to a professionell sport massage, itcreally hurts, but you feel better afterwards(because some chronic pain is gone). But it is so awkward if I would start the session with physical arousal.

I hope you can give me honest advice and (bc boys are weird: I DON‘T LOOK FOR A SEXUAL PARTNER - THANKS) I have that arousal because I take wellbutrin.

I had the low sex drive for years( because of hormonal treatment for endo and ssris) was hard for me, I wanted to have a horny self exploring(threw a looot of masturbation) teenager phase, wich I never had.

And I do feel mentally better, I see it because I am nit in 24/7 shut down mode: I can cry, I had the energy for a meltdown I should have had for months. I am more awake and energetic.

I think it is not a biggie for my husband as long as I cope with that by masturbating wayyyyy more, we talked about that.

But I feel like it is not okay, to be a hormonal teenager in my age, even though I was never one(society) And in the same I think for myself, fuck it I never was one and it would be good for me to go threw that phase.