Cord cutting gone RIGHT af I am happy but also a bit mad lol

So, I remembered this today and it got me laughing.

To understand this story you need to understand I am not a very religious person and I struggle(d) with mental for many years now. I did get better recently tho.

So, around two years ago I dated this girl who belongs to a afro-brazillian religion. It was very intense and although (I believe) we loved each other very much we were highly immature and toxic to each other.

We ended up badly, she did things after our break up that hurted me even more but y'know I tried moving on with my life, met a new girl, started dating (taking slow tho). I finally got back to my social medias and posted I was happy to have met my (then) current girlfriend, that we had fun, these type of ordinary things.

She saw. (Note: she started dating her best friend's ex like three months after we broke up)

Exactly one week later I started having these bizarre dreams with her, like REALLY bizarre, with her and religious entities and stuff. I got mentally ill, obsessed but overall could get my life moving (more or less). I did however break up with the girl I was with at the time, only then I stopped dreaming. We got back, dreams got back. We broke up, dreams stopped. Been single ever since.

This year I dreamed with a love spell (the same day I had my first dream with her) and got so scared (and obsessed) I needed to know tf was happening cuz I know I am unstable but that was too much already.

My tarot said there was magic there. Everyone's tarot said the same. I was like "it can't freaking be"

Paid a (trusted!) magician, she told me: "oh, it's a spell to 'lock your ways' (a bounding spell?), as if she was saying that if she can't have you then no one else can, you know? You don't need to get back to her but you can't forget her. She though she was being romantic and wasn't trying to harm you, but sometimes the receiving end of a spell simply can't handle and have a bad reaction to it. Honestly, even if it wasn't her intention, it doesn't show love to me, if you love someone, you shouldn't do this. It's a really old one too, must be here for a year or so."

I got so MAD I was like: omg this little freak got herself a girlfriend and still thought herself to be in the right to do this to me??? I'll end her life.

I didn't end her life. Got a cord-cutting spell. The first two weeks were a bit overwhelming but she vanished from my mind so naturally that only today I remembered it.

Honestly, NOW I find it funny like "oh, I was the moment huh?" or "she did get me there, she's good, she's good".

I am mad I didn't get a cord cutting sooner tho