I hide my dido from my bf just to please my reddit daddies

My bf is on the (much) smaller side when it comes to this subject, and gets very insecure about it. When we started dating he had me throw away my toys because he didn’t think I should need them, and at first I agreed. But over the years, as we got married and moved on with life, I have at times felt…frustrated…by the lack of depth. Amazon is my enabler here…I buy them there when he’s out of town and sometimes when he’s here, and throw it away after use. Not very environmentally sound of me but I can’t have him find it. No one I guess besides Amazon knows about it and I’m kind of amazed I’ve been able to do it so much over the last year without tripping myself up somehow and I love it