I'm confused about my sexuality now.

It's all started with a sad thought. It's after my marriage. We were seperated for a month due to work. During our seperation, I had a sudden thought that, if I die, what would she do? She'll probably marry someone else.

The thought went on and on and it reached a stage where they are having sex. That's the first time I'm imagining my wife with someone else. That was actually a sad moment but a turn on.

I couldn't accept that visual.

But when I imagine that scene I become more and more aroused and I liked that scene. I started to see videos, married couple and their feelings and explored thing.

Each day when I understand these things, it's become more and more eye opener.