One Result Is Destroying My Dreams… I’m Tired

I’ve completely lost my peace of mind. Every day starts with the same prayer: “Ya Allah, please don’t let me end up in a private university. Please don’t let me waste a whole year.” But these thoughts haunt me relentlessly.

My social life? Dead. Friends from college have disappeared, and honestly, I’ve stopped reaching out too. Everything feels like it’s falling apart—all because of one thing… scoring just 430/560 (76%) in 1st year. That one result has shattered my confidence, derailed my dreams, and left me questioning everything.

I’ve always dreamed of getting into FAST, LUMS, ITU, UET—just any good public university where I can prove myself. But now, even after scoring 280 in the UET entry test, I feel like my chances for Computer Science or Computer Engineering are slipping away. Every night I cry inside wondering: Was all of this for nothing?

I don’t want to go to a private university. I don’t want to put that financial pressure on my father just because I couldn’t perform one year. It’s not just about money it’s about self-worth, dignity, and the dream of being independent through merit. My heart aches thinking I might not make it.

I know there are students out there struggling silently like me. To all of you, I see you, I feel your pain. This system is suffocating.

Ya Allah, if there’s anything I ask of You right now, it’s this: Grant me and others like me admission in a good university. We’re not asking for luxuries,just a fair chance. I don’t want to waste my father’s money. I don’t want to waste another year. I just want peace… nothing more.