21 [M4F] Looking for local friends. Potentially a partner? #WA #NorthAmerica

The majority of the friends I've made are online and live at least one state away and at most are on different continents.

Quite frankly, I've had the board cleared several times either by circumstances beyond my control or simply because I was surrounded by cruel people who I had to kick out of my life. Through it all I've got 3 guy friends who are genuinely great people with or without me. But most of the women I'm friendly with in this state are through someone else, and there's certain barriers with friends of friends that that are exhausting.

I hate inconviencing people, I hate approaching them, and everytime I've approached women I feel awful. Social anxiety and the pelthora of stories I've heard from friends, friends of friends, family, family friends, etc... where a man approached them and it ruined their day... I know I'm not the problem, I know I would never act like the kind of person who is part of the problem, but that knowledge doesn't do fix how I feel. So I'd rather have someone approach on their own terms.

So be it friend, friend with benefits, partner, I want a connection of my own, not piggybacking off of someone else. Whatever boundaries or limits you want to set, I will follow and respect.

I have the usual nerdy hobbies. I do frequently (unless asked otherwise) make very flirty and or sexual jokes. And I have an ever growing collection of Kirby plushies, because he is fren shaped.