I had slip up. I feel so much shame and worry.

I have non-addicts in my family that don't know I lapsed today. They don't really understands the nature of being addicted either. If they ever find out, it usually leads to anger instead of understanding. I have so much shame, I don't even want to text those in recovery groups yet. I want to start here. I feel so awful. I was feeling depressed and trapped in my circumstances lately. Been looking for work but I end up so bored at home with a car getting fixed. I've lost a lot. I don't want this to spiral into a full blown relapse. Can anyone relate?