What should i do ? In clueless

I just need to let this out somewhere…

I’m a third-year college student, and lately, I feel completely exhausted and drained — mentally, emotionally, and even physically. No matter how hard I try, I just can’t seem to love myself. I keep applying for jobs while studying, but nothing is working out. I still live with my parents, and I can’t afford anything for myself.

I’m 21 now, and I want to take care of myself — to fix my teeth, start skincare, go to the gym and build some confidence, buy clothes that actually fit and make me feel good… but I just can’t afford any of it. I want to look better, feel better, and connect with people in a real and genuine way, but I feel stuck in this body and life that I don’t even like.

Each day, I feel like I’m falling deeper into self-hate. And the worst part? I’m not even sure my major will lead to a job when I graduate. My mom treats me like I’m a burden, and I barely talk to the only two friends I have left.

I have 5 y old cat that keeping me here, I don’t even know what I’m hoping for by posting this and i don't what to do , I'm lost