I think I actually may have found someone, I need to vent about the whole situation of how so got to this point

I (17 M) have this friendship with a girl (15 F) online (not on Reddit) and I really think this is the first girl that I have had a conversation with where it hasn't been driven by lust. I have been praying over and over again for God to soften my heart and/or replace my hardened heart and I feel light and at peace, and calm when talking to her.

My last relationship was also online and that was my first real relationship in years where I actually felt love, then she broke up with me for reasons I will not explain. After then I fell heavily back into lust and addictions for months, my fire, passion, conviction, peace, feeedom, my fear of the Lord dissapeared, but I never stopped trying to repent, pray, read my Bible, praise and everything, and I met her and she is a follower of Christ too and when she met me she said she thinks that God sent me her way because she was backslidden.

Went for a period of not talking to her, I then reached out and after a period of me thinking she was done with me after her not talking to me the nicest way, she apologized and asked me to forgive her. Obviously I did and we are closer than ever.

We sent each other romantic audio messages and we have nicknames for each other, and we both have struggled with lust and temptation. She said that she doesn't want to corrupt me and I told her I'd heal with her, and walk thru the fire with her. I really hope that this is part of God's plan, and that God sent her my way.

I really hope God is transforming me and healing me.