Early 20s

I’m genuinely losing it, I’m almost 22 next month and I feel like I’m more unhinged than ever !!!! I keep doing things I later regret idek why, I wasn’t even like this when I was a teen, I also have a strong desire for day drinking and smoking cigs (smoking which I already do daily lol </3) did anyone else also go thru this ? Oh and therapy isn’t a choice for now… also bc my parents are crazy catholic they’d rather send me to church 💀 idk how to control myself I keep doing more things I never thought of before and not even realize what I’ve done until later :(