Anyone else not fit in at all?

When I say fit in, I mean with the trans community.

I do not care for skirts, dresses, I like pants, shorts maybe one day when my legs are less hairy and all that, but for now its pants! (id kick ass in overalls!!)

I do not care for blahaj, looking like anime girls, saying "UwU" and ":3"

I don't do the "UwU talk" the "eepy" whatever you call it, it just isn't me.

But I want to be part of the community, Ive known for years im trans, I hide it tho from everyone irl, cause no matter how many times I tell my mom she ignores it, like she does all my feelings.

I am so alone, and the trans community, the only people who I feel like I can be myself around without the "DO YOU HAVE A DICK!?" or other pervted questions, constant misgendering of cis people.

Online is the only place I can meet other trans fems, before I dropped out of HS I was in a group of LGBTQ+ folk, I was the only trans fem there, but I left cause I felt like a burden in the group (I barley spoke)

No, I cant go anywhere else irl, I do not live in a state where I can walk to a bar, thats miles away, I cant walk to a park, thats also miles away, my parents refuse to buy me drivers ed, I cant get a job, I am stuck at home.

the internet is all I have, and I dont fit in any of the trans communities ive been in.
I just want to know im not alone..

P. S.
I am so sorry this ended up being a sort of vent, im sorry