I think my mom is about to commit and she can’t leave me…

Does anyone ever get the feeling that your loved one is near death?

My mom(42f) has been through a lot. 8-9 years of pure trauma and hell from a man that has done horrible things to her and I. Life hasn’t been the kindest to me, but I don’t plan on leaving this earth anytime soon. I have my little brother(8m) and plus I want to experience life.

My mom is in debt (I won’t say how much but it’s definitely in the deep thousands.), she’s dealing with horrible shit at work, we are not in the greatest living space (In her opinion.), and she’s not caring about stuff she use to anymore.

It hurts me to my fucking core. I’m crying right now just typing this. There has been so many mothers dead and I don’t want mine to leave even though she wants to. Usually when she’s feeling down, I could talk her out of it, but this time feels completely different.

I’m 19 years old. I don’t have a job because she wants me to focus on college but I just can’t sit back and watch this anymore. This feeling just won’t go away and it’s eating at me. I’m starting to lose hope in God and my life isn’t doing so great with that in my mind. I was JUST getting over my depression but this just brings me back down to it.

I can tell, she genuinely doesn’t care to live anymore. I could understand, I’ve been there, it hurts, but why leave me? My heart can’t take that, it truly can’t. I love her, we’ve been through too much.

I just need some advice. I’m praying to God someone at least has something that could help me because I know my mom is at her lowest and I truly don’t want to lose her. Please, please, please, just out of the kindness of your heart, please can I have some advice. God bless all of you.