I'm lonely

Serious

Ik this doesn't have anything with the theme of the subreddit but im desperate for some help, recently I've my closest friends were simply just pushing me away from their lives, that wouldn't be bad if I had or knew how to make friends, now everyday is just the same, I wake up, sometimes I don't even sleep, I stay on the computer all day to try fill some emptiness, it used to work but now it just isn't the same, everything is so empty, except when I played with my friends, but now only 1 of them plays with me and and he is always busy because he has a social life and goals unlike me, i feel so alone everyday thinking that it might take some days to some of my friends to notice that i might be dead, so since I can't make friends irl because I'm really anxious (to the point when I just start shaking out of fear to think that I will interact with someone) I try to make friends online, but I figured out i can't do that either, I never interact with no one because idk how to start a conversation and I don't join that many calls because I sometimes mispronounce words or because of my accent, so yeah I'm such a loser to the point that I can't even make friends online, maybe that's why everyone is leaving me, I mean, i wouldn't hangout with myself lol, idk I just feel so lonely everyday and that is killing me ever so slowly, I just want a group of friends or not even that, just someone to befriend me, even if it's online.