Reaching Out

I am two weeks into treatment, was unsuccessful at not using last weekend so I am on the slow march toward one week clean…thing is, the weekend’s hard already, and I just got out of group. Need help- I know for certain I’m not picking up anything anytime soon, but I’m holding onto stuff because “what if I want it?”/“it’s such a waste to just throw it away.” I’m dreading the feeling of wanting and not being able to so much that I’m disregarding the very palpable (and real) discomfort of not wanting to use but having it so close by. I have a SMART handbook, I even got invited into a WhatsApp group for the smart meeting I do attend, but I’m scared to reach out there so, here I am. I’m trying to build up the courage to just throw this shit down the drain but, you know…