This is just to vent my grief and a tribute to our beautiful Mocha.

Mocha (12) got diagnosed with last stage kidney failure with no symptoms prior to that in May. Her condition got worse and worse inspite of subct fluids, injections for eryhtropeotin and all other supplementation. Vets have suspected she has renal lymphoma but we couldnt get a diagnosis as they couldnt stabilize her enough for a biopsy. We have run out of options to make her feel comfortable. She was being kept stable just by injections every other day and the vet visits were so traumatic for her that it felt pointless after a while if the prognosis is so poor (we were given max few months more even if (big IF) chemo works).

We plan to put her to sleep today. She is so weak inspite of all treatment, refused food and water for more than 2 days now..can barely walk and peeing in the same place where she sleeps. We are heartbroken thinking about the unfairness of it all but at peace knowing her suffering is about to end. 

She was such a healthy cat just 2 months back. Only symptom we saw was gradual weight loss till May. Cant imagine our life without her as she was our first cat just after marriage..like our first baby 12 years back. She has been with us through thick and thin. She has been a super independent cat, graceful and beautiful. She had her own way of showing love, only wanted petting on her terms. Only time she allowed us to hug and kiss her was when we were in the bathroom or early in the morning after we wake up. She had the loudest purr i have heard in those few precious moments of the day.

Rest well baby and see you on the other side. We will miss you so much. 🌈🌈

Adding some pics of Mocha in good health as thats how I want to remember her.

Putting my girl to sleep after a 2 month long battle