i hate being poor

literally the title it's genuinely the most infuriating experience in the world. u apply to 100 jobs in a week, 95 ignore you, 3 cancel the interviews and the 2 you actually go to reject you. all within the same week. and it's an endless cycle of that until you either get lucky or go crazy. i thought i was doing something wrong personally but seeing sm people (even people with degrees) complain about the same exact thing has on one hand, made me feel better about myself but on the other, makes me wonder if i even have a future? my psychiatrist asked how she could help me today and i didn't know how to say for bajillionth time that i don't think psychiatrists are capable of making a dent in american late-stage capitalism. i can't even get a response from fast food chains despite having the experience... 🗿 i feel like im stuck in fucking limbo. who wouldn't be suicidal with no money when nobody is fucking hiring??? people have always said you have to work hard for your money and have acted like poverty is born from laziness and bad choices. but it's starting to feel like you have to get lucky to even get the chance to work at all. i've been trying to just "take advantage" of unemployment and enjoy the endless fucking free time but. i have no fucking money. going outside costs money. taking the bus costs money. i like the hobbies i have that are free and dont require i leave my room but i don't fucking care anymore i want a job i want a job i want a job i want a job i want a job.