Being awkward as fucking is so fucking hard 😢

I try so fucking hard to start conversations with people just casually smoking or whatever in social settings, even join into a convo where everyone else is saying something and my comment just never lands I feel like a fucking ferret dude trying to speak to regular people this is why I never leave my apartment and it only makes it worse makes me overanalyze the fuck out of my words my actions everything I already have anxiety but damn this shit sucks not even being able to be chill around people I’m a fucking freak and it’s hard when being “cute and weird” it’s trendy no bro not when you’re like me