Left undiagnosed

When I was about 20 and even way before that

I had a problem with the nose and I could not breath with it

No matter what I did

As soon as I want to sleep or lay down, my nose makes airplane noise to catch barely enough air to not die

Forced to breathe from my mouth instead

But then if you repeat that 24/7, it dehydrates your throat so bad and makes you swallow bacterias which can bleeding and infection which makes you basically unable to sleep at all times unless you fall from exhaustion

Not only you live a life where you're so sleep deprived that you feel like you could get hospitalised in anything you do and everyone arounds just makes it pass as normal

But also, extrapolate that to every other activities, in sports, in a physical or hard activity, you can never oxygenate your muscles or brain properly

Which makes you dizzy, hurting, exhaust your muscles way faster and unable to maintain anything

It also makes you look like you're about to die with super pale tone and big eye dark circles

And obviously makes you unable to think, talk, do anything properly which makes everyone flee you and then if you repeat that for years if not decades, it can really destroy your entire life

It can cause violence, failure, anything bad

It can destroy everything

It makes you unable to follow any studies because it class you cannot breath and so with standing even one 2 hour class makes you feel like you are going to pass out which is litteraly what's happening

But then everyone around just passes it as "pff what the fuck are you bro you're a child, you're piece of shit", or anything, but you're litteraly fighting not dying every second of your life

And you have zero tools to defend against these kind of accusations because you yourself have no idea what the fuck is going on and because of one other thing which the title of this post, you already went to see multiple fucking doctors telling you cannot fucking breath through your nose and it's killing you little by little and none of these motherfuckers were able to tell you what you should have done

And what I should have done is really the simplest thing on earth, I had polyps, a lot of them, I just had to treat them

I just had to fucking treat them

But I had to wait almost 10 fucking years, basically destroy and waste my entire fucking life away because I couldn't even breath, find the lowest requirment possible job by miracle just to save myself, and then auto diagnose me to a fucking normal doctor that said to me 10 fucking years later, "okay bro you have polyps, just take this"

After destroying shit after shit, not being able to talk or defend myself against anything nor even stand for myself because at some point I didn't even fucking know myself what the fuck was wrong with me

Here I am, finally someone reacts normally after 10 fucking years

But all this fucking time we knew perfectly what the fuck was wrong

And we contacted a doctor for a polyp extraction ten years ago, but after months of waiting he just looked at with a little stupidity disfiguration and said "yeah people live with this, you don't have to do it, it is not necessary to do the operation for you"

Is it really you truck load of shit

Seems to me that it may have been the most important shit I should have ever done in my life

But now all my life is wasted

Had to wait months after seeing the normal doctor and experience another season cycle after and catch a flu again and be again in a situation where normally my nose is completely blocked off for multiple days to figure out, wait, treating those fucking polyps now did that I could heal and evacuate my nose properly once the flu left for the first fucking time of almost my entire fucking life and get back the normal nose capacity and be able to actually hear what's happening around me while I'm breathing and try to sleep without dying and just sit normally without feeling like I'm dying