Help?

I’m not here to ask for advice. I just need to admit it somewhere.

I keep failing. Again and again. Porn, masturbation, edging, binging, shame — the whole cycle. I try to stop, I set rules, I make plans. Then I break them. And I hate that I do.

I’m not even sure what I’m chasing anymore. Discipline? Self-respect? Control? Maybe just peace.

But right now, it feels like I’m losing. Like this thing owns me. I’m tired. I’m angry. I’m disappointed in myself.

If anyone out there gets it — thank you. Just needed to let it out.