Really disliking my body

It wasn’t like this till 2022 when I had to have surgery but I’m AFAB and really hate my breasts some days

Again I used to have no trouble then the left one got an infection , then the right one needed surgery then the left one got sick again Having to find bras I’m also very just aware of them recently which is new as well

I’m gonna be honest I wish I was a skinny hot male presenting person I’ve always found it easier to write for my male characters then my female ones and my oldest Orginal character that has stuck by me is male always has been

It’s so odd that all this is crashing on me at 34 and I’m not sure how to handle it, I know I’d miss them if they were gone in the long run, I do have days I love my body but then there are others where I just wish I were a bi guy

Is that strange?