I feel like I have no identity or sexality

Hi, im 23F and I been judged to death and feel like I want to die because everyone believes im incompent for being diagnosed with autism and schizophrenia. To give some background I broke last year with the amount of bullying from my family and my family complains about me pointing out I don't want to be treated that way. They scream at me for confessing my feelings. And proclaim all my sisters are nerotypical and can act how they want no matter the stage there in. I also was r*ped at 7 with a knife and I feel i can't connect with anyone. I just want to feel loved to be a Christian and find people who accept me. In a society who craves identity in sex and creativity. What should I do? P.S antipsychotics messed up my brain and I really would like to know if functional medicine would help.