Today was really hard

I need to vent with out being told that "i made choices" (thats how my parents usually respond). My husband is away for a military school for 3 weeks. Im on day 5 of being solo 24/7. It has been a struggle. I have 3 kids 18mo twins and a daughter who turns 5 while hes gone. In general the week has been rough. The kids are upset and miss their dad, one of my twins had a massive blow out in his sleep i had to wake him up to give him another bath and switch out his bedding which then woke his twin up. my daughter got a stomach bug and vomited non stop, and refused to use a bowl a toilet or anything that would contain it. Theyve been alot fussier and disregulated, which makes sense they love their dad and hes not home and its weird for them.

Today broke me though. It was a pretty hard day anyway but it was manageable. Then after my boys went to bed my daughter went to use the bathroom and a few minutes later I hear her crying and panicking - she unrolled and stuffed an entire roll of toilet paper into the toilet, completely flooded the bathroom and then it started leaking through the floor and into our other bathroom. The travesty in this though is that her tights that looked like fox faces got wet. I got her cleaned up, fixed the toilet cleaned both bathrooms. When I called to talk to my husband I was really upset half in tears because I was stressed, he was out at a bar and I could hear girls laughing and singing, i asked how long he'd be out, and he said he didnt know but itd be at least a couple hours.

I know hes gone for work I know that I can't expect him to not have fun while hes gone, but I'm so lonely and stressed out from everything that happened and the juxtaposition of me at home fixing the chaos covered in toilet water and him laughing and drinking at a bar made me really sad.

I chose being a SAHM but sometimes it's really isolating and I dont have any friends who stay home who understand