Being Mixed Rant

I’m half Japanese, half German, but I look more on the white side, and it really messes with how people see me vs. how I see myself. I’m super connected to my Japanese side (my mom’s culture, values, food, etc), but people don’t believe I’m Asian unless I explain it. Even then, I get weird reactions.

Around Asians, I feel too white. Around white people, I feel like they’ll never get the other half of me. Even in mixed spaces, I don’t always fit, like I’m not “enough” of anything. I’m tired of feeling like I have to prove both sides of who I am. At this point I don’t even know.

It’s like I exist in the gaps, not really claimed by either side.