39 [M4F] #London UK - GF is becoming that annoying person who has an unwanted crush on you

In a relationship with my gf for almost 5 years now. Marriage is probably on the cards in the near future. I know it’s petty and childish, but the fact that she wants to marry me much, much more than vice versa has been getting on my nerves. Don’t get me wrong, I do love her, but on another level it’s like the post title; I feel drawn to being mean to and/or making a fool of her so she stops living this silly fantasy in which I’m beyond reproach as a person.

Cheated for the first time last year and loved everything about it. Looking to meet someone who also enjoys the thrill, and who also gets a kick out of talking about and making a fool of our partners.

I’m living in London, 6ft, in good shape, and definitely not as terrible of a person as this post would imply lol. Ideally hoping to meet people in closer regions of the UK, but open to chat to anyone.