I [25/F] have a crush on a good friend [22/M], but I'm married.

I [25/F] have a "crush" on a [22/M] friend I met in January of last year. The feelings started around a year ago. The thing is that I am married to my partner [28/M], who I absolutely adore. We have been together for 9+ years. Lately, things haven't been going all so smoothly, and I feel like that doesn't help with my crush at all. My partner has been suffering from depression since around last november, and only now has he started to seek help after I continously tried to convince him that things have to change.

I've had crushes before, but not like this. In the past, they were always short-lived and just a peak of interest in someone over the course of 1-2 months.

These feelings I have for my friend feel so much deeper and go beyond sexual attraction. I crave romantic interactions, flirting, spending as much time with him as possible. To be honest, the last time I felt feelings so intense was when I met my partner or when I feel especially close to my partner.

I feel like these feelings are making me go absolutely insane. I constantly think about him, I wonder if he, in any way, feels the same. I even get jealous when he talks to me about his dating experiences. I wish I could tell him how I feel.

Now the thing is.. We have become really good friends, and we have told each other on multiple occasions that spending time together makes us forget stressful everyday-life and it's just a really wholesome friendship overall.

I don't want to lose this, but I need serious advice on how to handle these intense feelings. The urge to tell him about hit almost rips me apart on some days. I just wish I could be close to him, but I don't plan on cheating on my partner either, lol.

TL;DR: I have an intense crush on a dear friend and need advice on how to handle these feelings without losing him.