Isolated (Covid days)

Not worried about this. Covid in my blood, not worried ABout what nobody is doing behind My back, not tripping no more Tryna control my mood swings. Feel like everybody Playing with my emotions, trying To get me to open up, but you’re Crushing me when I’m too open. Not seeing eye to eye with People I love the most won’t Speak on how I’m feeling, just Know I’m changing thinking. Different, wanna leave & get away From everybody, change my number. Act like I don’t know nobody, wanna delete All my media outlets, everything muted on my page, don’t have time to see nobody else’s highlights, most y’all lying, really know some of y’all secrets, fake it till you make it, can’t fake my life, really tryna to escape. Had to go, you weren’t feeding me mentally, couldn’t learn from you, tryna to unlearn old behavior taught to me as A child learned to survive, can adapt in any environment, they underestimate my intelligence’s tryna to bamboozle me. Like I ain’t seen your hand, you sloppy. Protect your heart, think with your Mind back, meditating, waiting for the Sun to rise, back in touch with heart. Been outta touch with myself for a while. Had to shake back mind, was too cloudy. Depression had me not loving myself. Had me around people who didn’t love Me. Just loved what I did for them once. I stopped everybody switched on Me, heard rumors, I won’t speak on it because When I address it , it’s open hand across the face, won’t ever speak ill on another human. Not in me too care for someone else’s feelings, doing what best for me, working Hard tryna to change.

yours truly

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