suicidal thoughts?

i'm 24 M

Whenever i try to do something i end up fucking shit up.

I'm so dumb im still in 3rd year of my btech

No matter how hard i try just to see my parents smile just once because of me, just once but some how i always managed to end up failing.

According to my parents I'm - Failure, embarrassment and useless

According to my younger brother I'm - He uses me as an example, he says "iske jaisi toh nahi honi chahiye jindagi.

Today i overheard my parents - "kaash ye corona ke time hi marr jaata"

I don't think there is any reason left.

what will happen they will cry 2-3 days they have another son anyway.