I think I'm too old for this, I lose more than I win.

I've been watching videos on playing, learning about developing your pieces, castle within 10 moves and adapting as required. but i seem to always lose track of my pieces, dont always see all of opponents attacking moves, Often botch defending wayward queen attacks. i think my chess.com highest rating was 340 something.

When i try to take time to look at my moves, i end up running out of time at the end. When i do checkmate, its usually a lucky situation, not something that i had planned out.

gets discouraging - but i still keep coming back. I'm only playing a few 10minute games a day on chess.com. I obviously don't have some hidden talent - i guess i'm expecting too much. At least I'm fodder for users with more potential :)