Adults please tell me what to do, this is really getting out of hand 🥲

Oki this is gonna be loooooong haha. I'm currently going through so much doubt and kinda a crisis cuz I don't know the future (like obviously I don't, I'm not a Mage or smth like that(sadly T-T)) and idk I need some adult to talk to and maybe give me advise.

I've written about that topic a million times already and I do know that I'm just in my first yeah but this is just getting to me too much. I've just completed my first year in apprentice school(Berufsschule) and I have one C in practical work (that's a subject btw) otherwise I have two B's and the rest are A's.

The problem is that my "predecessors" (at my workplace,not school) are both geniuses, the one that started simultaneously with me skipped two classes and the other just got accepted into Art Uni where even my boss failed to get accepted.

And then there's me, someone who's not really good at her job, I'm constantly making mistakes and I'm 90% of the time not concentrated enough (I have ADHD) to do a perfect job or sometimes I even have the feeling a good enough job. And the worst part, my boss now knows that I probably won't even stay after I finish my apprenticeship so she's basically teaching me for nothing.

Now again, I'm not super duper bad but also not really good and in my job everything HAS to be perfect cuz we work with super old and expensive stuff. I'm probably gonna get myself some meds for the concentration thingie but yeah now I'm just not sure if I should (yes I 100% should!) finish my apprenticeship. This is so much stuff and on Monday (in 2 days) I'm going back to work and so worried that I'm just really not good enough for that job. Ahhhhhhhhhhh yeah anyways I kinda want to stop cuz I always get these stupid thoughts but I know I shouldn't always give a damn about everyone else and also look after myself. But idk I guess that's just me. Oh and the best part, in school we had two bomb threats, one school shooting(not our school thank the gods) and my roommate ate a poisonous flower on purpose and we spent the whole day going from hospital to psychiatrist to specialists(I knew her for like 2 months then) so yeah.... Any advice hahahaha I need an Adult T-T and pls don't tell me "you're just in ur first year, you'll get better. " YEAH I MIGHT GET BETTER BUT THIS IS BOTHERING ME SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH I NEED TO SOLVE THIS NOW BEFORE I GO CRAZY 🥲