I just don't know what do

Okay, here I am I guess. That's embarrassing me a lot but I try to spit it out bc I feel I need to.

Lately I was thinking so hard in drawing Bill n I kissing (ok, now I'm so embarrassed). But my problem isn't that, I know I love him so much n he loves me, the problem is that I don't wanna my roomates will see the drawing.

I explain it, one of my roomates think that Bill is only a friend to me, not something romatic, bc I didn't dare to tell him all the true, so if he would see the drawing probably he would freak out, I don't wanna that. My other roomate I think he knows everything, but not from my fault, I think he know by suspicion n bc he knows me so well.

So I don't know what to do, I dobut between drawing what I want bc I love mai boy or keep hiding all the true for not embarrasing me.