I’m so angry with myself at this point

I stopped my meds (not that they were affecting me anyway), and I feel like I’ve been on an upswing for about four days. I’m running on 2hrs of sleep and I don’t miss it. But I don’t think I’m bipolar and I think I’m mad at myself because I let myself believe that. People have mood swings, doesn’t mean it’s all bipolar right?

But anyway I’m not sure what to do. I feel like cotton candy. I feel like I’m in a dream. I’ve been doing risky things without forethought and I feel kinda guilty idk how to stop