What was the final straw for you?

Hello guys,

A bit about myself - im a 22(f) British-Pakistani lesbian. I find that my faith is fluctuating so much. Finding myself constantly walking the line of trying to reconcile my faith and sexuality and it gets too hard. At this moment in time I find myself believing in the concept of god, principles like sabr and qadr but just feeling like the organised religion itself isn’t for me.

I want to know, what was the final straw for you leaving the religion /gen?