For the first time on this journey feel truly rejected….how do you even find happiness now

About 5 years into the journey. Our last seperation was a year, I over shared my feelings I think and he just ran off but this time it seems final like his free will is choosing to just fully reject me. For the first time now in this seperation I don't feel anything but pain and hurt and anger. He stopped checking in on me like he always did, he seems to actually be gone. Before I could handle no contact, I knew he was still thinking of me, we would still check on social media in our own ways, now it's just radio silence. How have any of you found happiness when your twin full out rejects you? Cause I never stop thinking of him no matter how much I work on myself. Trust me I have that part down. I have my hobbies, I'm always alone and I am content. Now there's just a void and I hate this, I don't see any hope...how do you pick yourself up when there's no positive feelings? No cute synchronicities anymore, no cute warm fuzzies, just silence and the realization they do not want you