My name is Michael and I’m an alcoholic.

I don’t know how this will work out for me but I’m here now. I’m a 31 year old alcoholic that’s been struggling on and off for years with drinking. I have had so many times of questioning my existence and why am I made like. I have been essentially destroying my relationship with my son because of it, I just lost my mother earlier this because of her struggles with it and I was the one who found when I did but also found the bottle of liquor that she took her last drink from and I’m damaged from this and don’t want this to happen to me but I’m lost without her and hate myself for it everyday. It runs in my family and I witnessed this growing up and it has taken everything from and now I’m at the point to where I’m getting more and more angry at myself for still not breaking this evil curse over me. Please if anyone could offer anything even just a listening ear, I just want this part of my life to be done once and for all.