Dreading going back to school

I’m excited to go back to college and to see all of my friends but I have the biggest pit in my stomach just thinking about being surrounded by so many reminders of him. We saw each other on and off all of last school year and ended things right after spring break. Every day has hurt since then and it’s only just starting to feel a little lighter but I still cry over it like every other day. I’m thinking about how once I’m back at school I’m going to be back right where it all happened. I’ll have to pass his house going to my friends places. I’ll have to lay in the bed we slept in together almost every night alone. I wish I could erase all those memories of him and the time we spent together from my brain. He hurt me so bad and I hate that he still affects me this much even months later.