My life is just empty

I get bullied, and i already made posts on Tuesday, i was so depressed and i thought it was getting better at the weekend, no bullying, no school, but it didnt get better in any way, i dont even know how i feel, i just feel empty, when i want to cry i cant, i laugh sometimes but i dont feel happy, and everything just gets too much for me, i couldnt get myself out of bed this morning, i laid there 3h because i also couldnt sleep, i take adhd medication but i still can't sit still in school, and tomorrow i have to endure bullying again for 5 days, the only thing that made me forget everything was playing counter strike, but today was the first time in a week that i actually had fun in playing (i played every day before i got depressed), i also dont want to do anything with my parents (i dont hate them but i just wanna be alone), i was at the cinema with my dad (i wanted to go alone or maybe with 1 friend) but even there i wasn't really happy, i just dont know what to do, i dont even fucking care if i live or die