I know what are you gonna say but..

I don't feel pretty, And it's hard for me to feel pretty , i wish i could send someone how do i look , i wish I don't get compliments if they are not real and just to 'support me', i hate how i look and how my face is , how i am always darker than anyone else tho i am light skinned but idk how that only happen to me in pics , how my nose is big , how my eyes is so small ,my window peak , my heavy lower lip , the weird my heart face shape is , i had been crying for over hour on how when i see those pic , tho i shaved thw window peak , and did alot of changes in my face , but i still feel so low , i feel so ugly,i feel hopless to dea..th, i feel i am always uglier than others , why i am not like this and pretty , comparing and wishing , hoping and breaking, don't see me as an insecure girl , but i just can't hold that in my self anymore , no boys even dm me , i don't even feel like they are attracted to me ...i am sick of my self , do you think subliminals can help me or ...., no lies pls , i wish to pe pretty , and don't tell me to use those confidence subliminals , because when you feel ugly is opposite from when you know you already are ...