I’m so tired of life always being this hard.

I don’t have the energy to write something fancy or well-structured. I’m just tired. Every time I try, life finds a new way to shut me down. I’ve worked hard, I’ve been kind, I’ve tried to stay strong—but it feels like I’m always stuck in survival mode while others get to live.

I feel invisible. Like I never mattered to anyone in a real way. The things that made me me feel so far away now, I don’t even recognize myself sometimes. I’m exhausted trying to hold on, and even more exhausted pretending I’m okay.

My partner keeps on advising me things to do but never really shows up for them. My parents keep on giving me advice but they never understand what’s really going on.

I know none of them mean any harm to me but they dnt understand that i am not looking for advice rather an ear, a light support or emotion that makes me feel heard.

I have passive suicidal ideation and have been having them a lot lately.

I just needed to say this somewhere.