Jealousy

Me and my school friend started CA together in May 2021. He cleared foundation in one go cleared inter in one go and today even final in one go. Well whereas as my lazy ass passed ca inter as well caf in 3rd attempt. Well now I'm gonna complete my 1 year of articleship but something doesn't feel good. This jealousy is eatinge from within. It wasn't my result of failure but still I feel to be failed. Being back by 2 fuckin years just makes me sad and depressed. I just don't feel like to converse. This human behaviour is insane. Day before I was yesterday I was all excited to start cfa prep start searching for IT and today nothing feels good. My family doesn't show but deep down I know how depressing it must be for them too. It just feels surreal he would be earning 24 lpa in these two years and I would be fighting with my principal to don't deduct my rs. 300 stipend for a holiday. I don't even know if it would be only 2 years. Fuck man this self hate is getting on my nerves. I hope in coming week I'll just forget and start with my work.