We used a strap for the first time in years

I could never talk to anyone in my life about this (besides my girlfriend) but I really wanted to share my feelings about this in some way.

My girlfriend and I have been together for almost 7 years. About 3-4 years ago, we tried using a strap for the first time. It was good, but the strap itself sucked and we were inexperienced teenagers (18/19) so it wasn't anything to write home about.

A few months after we got the strap, we went through something really traumatic (that I'd rather not get into) and I didn't want to use it anymore for a multitude of reasons. My girlfriend is amazing and hasn't brought it up since.

Two weeks ago-ish, when we were fooling around I brought up how I'd been thinking about wanting to try using one on her again. She was super down and we eventually got around to ordering one (that's much better than our previous one) and it came in the mail yesterday.

Holy fuck. Last night. Oh my god. I won't go into too much detail, but at one point we checked the time and realized we'd been going for just over 2 hours. It's pretty normal for sex to take 1-2 hours for us, but that's in total, start to end. We had never spent 2 straight hours doing one thing like this. We were like addicts, we couldn't stop.

Part of me is thinking, "you're so stupid, this is so amazing, why have you been choosing to miss out on this for years?" But the other part of me is grateful that I waited, because I don't think it would have been this enjoyable if I didn't give myself the time I needed to heal and grow. I'm just feeling really proud of myself and excited to explore this new chapter of our sex life.