Will I ever be accepted within Christianity

So for context - I'm a gay man. I've had alot going on in my life, I'm diagnosed Bipolar and it's taken me a long time to get to the point I am now. I can feel god calling out to me and I am in a position to listen to him. As you can imagine with mental health issues times have been crazy, I've done some awful, bad things that I obviously regret and feel ashamed off and although I really wasn't in touch with reality at the time I still hold myself accountable for my actions. It's taken me along time to escape the leftist mind control and I can really see things for how they are now (thanks Candance O 🙏🏼) I genuinely don't stand for any of that communities values AT ALL and hate having the association with it. I just have romantic feelings for men.

Basically to actually get to the question, am I just going to be under constant attack for being gay and Christian? Is that even able to be a thing? They lgbcdefg would be calling me a self hater, and I'm genuinely scared of the anger, upset and offense this could cause to those in the church, I genuinely hate conflict and the last thing I want to do is ruffle anyones feathers.