All the depression/mental illness aside, Im starting to think virtually everybody’s a bit dishonest & I find it repulsive.

Am I projecting a bit? Possibly… I just dont think we generally speak with 100% conviction… Sometimes we tell lies or “white” lies to avoid conflict or harming others… Its easier to tell someone struggling with depression that “its gonna get better/ its gets better with time” but we all know thats not the truth.

It’s harder to tell someone their fate might be to pointlessly suffer all their life until death. It may absolutely not get better. The truth is often inconvenient, yet it resides right infront of our faces. Do people generally desire the truth? No. I believe I read a study somewhere claiming people do not value the truth unless it coincides with their biases. So while the truth is existent, its translucent. Its hard to discern the truth without it being corrupted with our own worldview…

I have been isolating myself, because I think 99% of people are full of shit, including me… I do not want to spend my existence being lied to. I do not wish to be lied to ever again & I do not want wish to mutter another lie to someone to save their feelings… I am born in the USA & have spent 28 years here… Our entire empire was built upon lies, there is hardly any community because there is almost no single truth we are unified under. The biggest lie being “the American Dream” & the pursuit of happiness that most Americans will never actually have access to.

Dishonest people are everywhere. I enjoy animals because they cannot lie. I would rather be alone in total isolation than surround myself with people that do not value truth. Ive always dislike dishonesty, but it makes me unreasonably angry these days. Sometimes I fear ive already gone mad by all the lies told to me. I dont want to hear another lie.