Damn it ! I can’t !😩😥😖🤕

So I’ve been posting allot trying to work up courage to come out to my parents… but I just can’t, I feel like I’m so close but I back out last minute because I start playing a bunch of scenarios in my head of the future and how my immediate family is going think…idk. It also sucks because it kinda feels like I’m just playing around saying “ ok today I’m doing it “ and always back out 😩 I guess today was not the day but damn it sucks !!