My story very funny, interesting and confusing

Hi everyone am 21M I don’t know how to say this but my story is somehow different from many of you It’s probably one of the funniest stories you will ever hear Logically I am not virgin, but I consider my self a virgin and as someone who can’t get a women to bed. Here is how it started. During my childhood, i was a very religious and innocent kid and early puberty years i discovered pornography around 11y and i have been masturbation ever since . And then i had a neighbor she was around my age. Then me being i horny, somehow I started touch her and she got used to it, and after sometime i we had a kiss Which was my first and the worst I don’t even Consider it a kiss but okay. Then we started getting sexual and i used get naked and sleep next to her but still didn’t try to have sex, continued to do so and surprisingly the idea of having real sex didn’t occur to me, i just loved and enjoyed the idea of getting naked and sleeping, while rubbing my d against her ass and pussy it would make me ejaculate.

I know am making it a sex story, I don’t know if It’s appropriate in this group, i apologize

Then she moved somewhere else, it’s wasn’t love or anything i was just sexual thing I don’t know what to label it( friends with benefits maybe) later on started doing this with another girl I won’t go into details but we did kind the thing more she was more passionate, with kissing and touching my d and stuff I enjoyed it But now the idea of women’s pussy started to scare and discomfort me, I don’t know why but i felt disgusted and terrified with the idea of putting my hand, finger or my d in side any women But still i kept on masturbating many times while watching porn, i liked porn was okay but i used watch lots of anal While doing the same stuff with her And did this stuff with other women too And by this time am around 16 or 17 And i got university

Getting to university, felt amazing i thought i would have my best sex life there, tried to talk to women that year but no luck and then at second semester i kinda got lucky and kissed someone then I don’t know what happened she didn’t talk to me after that And then got a girl the i liked, apparently she had a crush on me too. We had some moments still no sex I really liked her, first heartbreak Again another’s same thing just kiss And then i was about to turn 20 And I promised myself i had to do it before turning 20 which I convinced my self to pay a sex worker and then at first we got naked everything was fine i was about to lose it. I did put it in and had a few strokes but then I don’t know what happened my d got soft and couldn’t get hard. after trying to get it up for a while it got hard again but after a few strokes And it got soft again I was so embarrassed and confused and happy At the same time I left that was my first experience I don’t know what to call it but i kinda got over the experience. Still in campus, made it my goal to get women, Approaching women i see, but still no luck this time, Got a few kisses but sex And am also still terrified of the of the a women’s pussy while this happened I haven’t got over that fear But now am so tried of of trying so Am going back to campus but am going to focus on school, skills, gym and other stuff. I have promised myself that i wouldn’t try to approach or talk to any women and even reject every women that tries to talk to me. (Where i live am considered a bit attractive) so am sure they will try but because am so hurt my the idea of no being able to get a women into bed I will not be seeing any women from now on.

I know it’s a long story i hope u find funny