Being a mom and hyper sexual

I’m very on and off on reddit, I’ve had several accounts now I used to look for local hook ups but it’s difficult having boys. I stuck to mostly posting for now and chatting because I’m a bit tired of sneaking around partners I feel like a teenager everytime I have sneak in my partners to fuck, but it just builds sexual frustration not having anyone and it makes me come back to reddit. I have the cycle going constantly of coming on reddit and deleting my account but then coming back because I love the attention, especially since I can’t meet up with people because I don’t get that much childfree time from my teens/kids now that they’re off from school but my mind just keeps craving someone or the attention :/